I love Sam, Caiden, Conner's, and my world when it is about "us". When what we feel God leading us too is central and no one else is ruling. Our family's world should be about OUR family. Why do people say that is selfish? Making it special, wonderful and as full as life as one can on this earth brings me joy and life. Why should I ever feel ridiculed for that? Why should I ever care about the pressure from others and about what is expected of me and from me as not just a woman but as a wife and a mom. The stereotypes that are impossible to get away from no matter what age you are or what place you are in life.
My world SHOULD be about my husband, kids and myself! What GOD wants for us because HE is the Ruler. What path He is leading us down as we walk through this world together. I should care about my heart and what makes me thrive in life and about my passions and what drives me on so should my husband and my kids! We SHOULD care! Our heart cries and yet me SMASH it down and try to carry on in the life those things that are EXPECTED of us! Is that really living? Is that what God desires for us? Are we living a fulfilling and glorifying to God life if we are living the life we were "raised to live" or that is "put on us" as "THE way". How can I live the story God has for me if I am trying to live the story I am supposed to live; what is "safe" or "right" in whomever's eyes. What about what God has written and is writting for us as INDIVIDUALS? We are NOT to all live the same. How can we, when God made us all unique and different? Why do we think we all should live by a certain method, standard, theory, or "steps"? How can we live in such a way that is so far away from how God desires for us to live? How can we be a "witness", a light pointing to God, a glorify being to the one who created us, if we are living to please instead of living in faith?
My world SHOULD be about my husband, kids and myself! What GOD wants for us because HE is the Ruler. What path He is leading us down as we walk through this world together. I should care about my heart and what makes me thrive in life and about my passions and what drives me on so should my husband and my kids! We SHOULD care! Our heart cries and yet me SMASH it down and try to carry on in the life those things that are EXPECTED of us! Is that really living? Is that what God desires for us? Are we living a fulfilling and glorifying to God life if we are living the life we were "raised to live" or that is "put on us" as "THE way". How can I live the story God has for me if I am trying to live the story I am supposed to live; what is "safe" or "right" in whomever's eyes. What about what God has written and is writting for us as INDIVIDUALS? We are NOT to all live the same. How can we, when God made us all unique and different? Why do we think we all should live by a certain method, standard, theory, or "steps"? How can we live in such a way that is so far away from how God desires for us to live? How can we be a "witness", a light pointing to God, a glorify being to the one who created us, if we are living to please instead of living in faith?
What is the passion inside me that is driving me to feel the boredom and restlessness in my day to day? Why do I daily feel God pushing those dreams in my heart closer and closer towards the wall of fear I have up as if working on tearing it down while I keep trying to put up more bricks and mortar at the same time. The fear of man. The fear of expectations. What more does God have for me that I am too afraid to leap for?
My week last week in Iphone pics! :)We got to celebrate our perfect, handsome little men's 3rd birthday this week and I had a BLAST trying my hand back out on making their birthday cakes! :D Thanks mom for showing us girls how to cake decorate growing up! It has been over around two years since I made the last "cake" and I enjoyed the 3 hour project "muchly"! I baked the "pieces" of the truck using a loaf pan, a mini loaf pan and a glass cup. Then assembled the pieces with a cardboard bottom for support and using small dall rods to keep the truck body from flattening the cake wheels underneath. Then colored my icing the desired colors and decorated to my hearts contentment! :D
My Superman and I had our weekly date night out and thoroughly enjoyed going to see the 4th Mission Impossible together and pizza at Mazzio's afterards. (Where we ALWAYS eat after we go to see a movie. lol) For some reason Mazzio's brings out something in us. We have yet to have a date there where we have NOT gotten "all deep" emotional. The waitresses are going to know us as the couple that comes to cry over pizza. Happens at no other restaurant! We joke about how when we need to talk we are going to start saying to each other, "Honey, it's time for us to go get a x-large kens pepperoni and jalapeno pizza." :D
He started the date off surprising me with my favorites as he opened the truck door for me. Bright flowers and milk choc. m&m's! Ah yes, he stole my heart ALL over again! :D
Other funs from last week?
I got to try out my new batter dispenser that was on of my Christmas wish list that my Mom got me! I LOVE this thing! I will be using it ALL the time from now on! I want to make "fun" pancakes with it next! I tried a new hot pink lip stick from my giant new makeup stash I got with a Christmas gift card! I gotta figure out how I want to store it all! I have very limited space in our bathroom for more "makeup bags" and honestly digging through makeup bags sucks. I have seen so many ideas on Pinterest but none that really work for me that I am falling head over heels for yet. Any ideas are VERY welcome! I can't leave it all lined up on our dresser for much longer! lol I'm leaning towards this product here on the left. I'm LOVING the look and functionality of it!
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